It makes me feel like we're nothing more than puzzle pieces.
But to you I'm just a fleeting thought. A way to fill the time when no one else is available.
Being away from you was brutal
But being back in your embrace feels like home
like the world is a tiny place that we can inhabit as we see fit
By your side I feel fearless towards all the uncertainty.
But it's all false. All of it a joke.
You smile & throw around cute names and false promises
but it's only for the moment.
We are perfectly imperfect together
It's selfish for me to want to be by your side
Because next to you I'm the strongest I've ever been.
You make me want to take chances I never knew I could.
You make me feel calm, content and ok in my own skin.
Yet to you the reasons for being with me are completely different.
Or so it would seem.
Your energy is nothing short of magnetic.
With you I can shut my eyes because I feel completely safe
while at the very same time I know I'm not.
You offer me the security of a rotten safety net
that could give away at any moment and send me plummeting into disaster
I've seen the fire in your eyes, heard it urgently command your voice
And yet the questions I ask you remain completely unanswered.
I know how lonely life can be
I've walked those cobblestone paths many times before
But deep, deep down being without you is a shade of loneliness I never want to know.
Even though I acknowledge that this is only a matter of time
I don't have any words to describe your real affect on me.
I can't explain it exactly the way it feels.
Just know that for you, anything you ask is possible
Even though you're the last person who deserves any of it.